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Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Writing

Seems I'm not doing it. Getting ready to visit the most wonderful place on earth next week, so... We'll see if I write more before I go or not :-)

Love ya!


Friday, July 15, 2011

Its Friday again, which means it Haiku Friday. This week the word is weeds.

Don't forget to check out Kim. She inspires me on many levels.



Weeds

Its almost gone now.
In the courtyard only weeds
All our broken dreams

I work for a large, super-large, high-tech multi-national soup-to-nuts computing solutions company. Our color is not blue, although I wish it had been. I am a hardware gal, and my hardware lab is in the complex that's been sold to the billionaire stalker, who is totally re-building the place. As of today we've been denied access to the beautiful inner courtyard area of the complex. I have always personally felt that our courtyard was a somewhat magical place. Its a serene place that I loved to traverse. Its hard to be here and watch the changes someone else is making. This was our place. Now its not. And I feel like our dreams have truly been demolished with the changes made by others.

I have been quite bitter and disillusioned by the corporate circumstances of the last two years. Yes, I still have a job, but why did we get sold out? Why was our management so busy putting their hair in pony tails that they couldn't make our wonderful products sell?

Its a sad, weedy kinda day.

Monday, July 11, 2011

Romeo and Juliet

So, I have a new favorite song... actually this has been going on for about a month now. I find it beyond awesome. Its written by Mark Knopfler - you know, Dire Straits. I remember them from my childhood. I was aware of bands and music at a very tender age :-) The song is recorded by The Killers

I always loved Dire Straits, and Mark Knopfler - but I never committed to them the way I have committed to say, U2, Sting, The Police... Maybe its time to committ :-) I love this song. Its fanciful and expresses something about a quirky romanticism that's just me all over...

Here's the original



And here's The Killers

Friday, July 8, 2011

Another Haiku Friday

Its Friday again, which means it Haiku Friday. This week the word is story.

Don't forget to check out Kim. She inspires me on many levels.

Story...

I have a story
Evolving within my heart
Filled with love and stuff

I have a story
Evolving with love and stuff
My heart deeply blessed

I have a story
Evolving with love and stuff
Of my heart's blessings

I am no haiku master, but I'll try to keep trying :-) You know, I do this while I am busy working - and my work just aint all that zen-like. More like the anti-zen.

What a tough space in which to spend so much of my time. Through it all, I am smiling today - tears don't seem too close to my surface, but that could change if the boss-man decides to break his promise and harass me before Tuesday :-)

Yes, the mood is light
And my heart is floating high
A good story now

You know, its true, if I just get my fingers moving I find things in me, places in my imagination, and words that all come together and actually kinda work.

The blessings are flowing today. Maybe I can channel them into my work, which I must get back to now.

Love Crazy!

Thursday, July 7, 2011

Backed Away

I think I backed away just enough somehow. Spent most of yesterday in frustrated tears. Balance is difficult to hold on to. Why is that?

Wednesday, July 6, 2011

Burned Out

I can't imagine why it did occur to me sooner, but I'm burned out. Work has been really awful for *so* long and I haven't had a vacation in two years. Yes, I've taken time off, but that is so that I can run all over and coordinate stuff and do stuff - not just do nothing.

I need to do nothing.